Donor Network Memorial

Tomorrow we have an Organ Donor Network memorial. It’s an event put on by the network to honor those who have given the gift of an organ or tissue. I haven’t put much thought into what it’s going to be like. Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing.

Doug, myself and my brother and sister will be attending together. I thought it would be a nice way to honor them as Owen’s godparents. I haven’t even thought about what I am going to wear. Something orange of course. I must be wearing orange tomorrow. The only dress clothes I have bought since having the triplets is the dress I wore to Owen’s funeral. I don’t know if I’ll ever wear it again or not.

I go back and forth about it. I don’t want it to lose it’s memories. Or the memory of Owen’s funeral to be covered with other memories of when I also wore the dress. I don’t want the dress that I wore on such an important day to be diminished to an everyday item in my closet. I’d never wear my wedding dress again … It just would not fit in. Obviously I’d stick out like a sore thumb walking around in a huge white dress … Why would it be any different with the dress I wore on June 1st? They both hold the same importance, if not more, in my heart.

But the importance isn’t visible. The dress I wore that day could be mistaken for a dress worn to a wedding reception or maybe on a first date. Perhaps it was a dress worn to an interview. All of these possibilities yet, I wore the dress the day I said a goodbye to my son.

So who knows really what tomorrow will bring. I hope some honor to Owen’s early departure. Maybe a little bit of healing. I hope tomorrow will bring me closer to my brother and sister and my husband. I pray that I will be able to feel the pain tomorrow. I welcome the pain … feeling the pain earns me a little bit more healing.

Love, Mel

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Filed under Grief, Organ Donation, Posted by Melissa

5 responses to “Donor Network Memorial

  1. jeanette

    I hope that everything goes well for the four of you tomorrow honoring your little Owen. God bless you all!!!

  2. I don’t know what color the dress was that you wore to the funeral… (society associates funerals with black.) IF it was black, I’m not sure I would encourage it. I would say – go for the orange! It’s bright, and vibrant…. It seems to me that something honoring organ donation is about celebrating LIFE… both the life that was lost, and the life that was allowed to continue.

    Whatever choice you make, no doubt it will be the one that is right for you 🙂 (for God has already made that choice.)

  3. Jana

    I saw your blog on another page…Herrin Twins and have followed your journey for almost a year now. With today’s topic of Organ transplant I thought you might be interested in this story…this sweet little girl is at this very moment receiving a heart transplant.
    http://www.abbysperfectbrokenheart.net/
    https://www.facebook.com/Scrapbuck?sk=timeline#!/pages/Abbys-Perfect-Broken-Heart/134599113222357

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