I’ve been crazy busy and stressed this week. It’s Teacher Appreciation week and I’m the parent volunteer running this week’s events at Willow. I have another mom organizing with me — I can’t imagine what it would be like without her!
Last night I was putting the finishing touches on today’s mailbox stuffers and all I could think about was how I wanted to crochet. I haven’t had time to work on the two “in progress” blankets all week and I was really missing it. I kept looking at the clock to see if maybe there would be enough time to crochet at least one row. Considering how tired I was and that it was already 10:30pm I decided to read a few chapters out of “Shades of Grey” (I know — guilty pleasure!) and go to sleep instead.
While brushing my teeth I starting mulling over why I missed crocheting so much and I started to realize that each stitch I crochet, I was also holding myself together. The time where my hands do all the work and it allows my mind to wander a little bit. The moments in between rows when I inhale and exhale. I was literally holding myself together by crocheting. Without this time of peace each day, I start to lose myself. I need to crochet for my sanity … not just for the joy of making hats for all my friend’s cute little girls but also for myself.
Jaden asked me to make him a blanket a week or two ago. When I asked him what color he wanted he said orange because he misses Owen and this way it would be like he was sleeping with him each night. Then he added that he thought it should have green and blue in it for all of his brothers. Is it just me or is this a deep thought for a 5 and a half-year old?
As soon as this week’s festivities are over, I’ll be back at it with my crochet hook and yarn. What helps hold you together? What part of your daily routine brings you sanity and keeps you from losing your mind?